boygenius Afraid of Heights Lyrics

I know that I fucked up when I
Told you I’m afraid of heights
It made you want to test my courage
You made me climb a cliff at night
You wanted me to jump, and I declined
You called me a coward, I replied
“I don’t want to live forever
But I don’t want to die tonight ”

When the black water ate you up
Like a sugarcube in a teacup
I got the point you were making
When I held my breath till you came up

There’s been a run of fires downtown
On half-built construction sites
I know you never liked a townhouse
I’ve seen you climb a crane at night
If they ever catch you at it
I know you’d want me to be proud
That you took a rich man’s dream
And brought it with you on your way down

‘Cause one man’s dream is another man’s death
I remember when you told me that
Didn’t know what to say, so I just laughed
But now I know it’s not funny

I never rode a motorcycle
I never smoked a cigarette
I want to live a vibrant life
But I want to die a boring death
I know I was a disappointment
Knew you wanted me to take a risk
Not everybody gets the chance to live
A life that isn’t dangerous

You called me a crybaby
But you’re the one who got teary
Telling me what you believe
How we’re stuck in entropy

How it hurts to hope
Oh, it hurts to hope for more
Oh, it hurts to hope the future
Will be better than before